LOVE THEM. Live in the present. Remember grace abounds. Feed them real food. Let them see you struggle. PRAY LOTS. don't be afraid to let them fail. Ask for forgiveness. BE STILL. LOVE THEM.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Down about Daddy

I’m behind with this post since Brad has been gone for almost a week now on deployment.  He will be gone for about two months.  Short but not sweet.   Nothing about it is sweet really.  We always really miss him and I get super emotional and the older Bradley gets the more I have to talk to him about it and some days that just makes it harder when I am trying to trudge forward.  On just the first day  Bradley asked FIVE times about him.  “Where is my Daddy?” or “I want to see my Daddy!” and “I want to go to work with daddy and pow-pow the bad guys.” It breaks my heart.  There are many reasons why I will miss him but the one that always stands out the most to me is laughter.  Our home is just so much more fun when he’s around.  He makes all of us smile and laugh.  To Brad it comes natural but when he’s gone I have to make a point to ask myself…..Ok, how much has Bradley had fun with me today?  Did I make him laugh or giggle?  or was I too serious all day?  There is something about seeing the way he makes the boys faces light up when he plays with them and talks to them and they just grin from ear to ear or giggle.  We both love our boys giggles.  They are kind of the same now that Gavin is old enough to giggle and Brad tickles them so much just to hear it! Music to our ears.  So, I'm sad for him that he will be missing all of those moments with the boys.  He reminds me all the time to appreciate staying at home with them.  Which I do, but he says he would send me to war if he could so he could take my place.  He wouldn’t really, thank goodness, but it shows the sacrifices he makes.  He loves his job but his family more!  As it should be.  Brads last day at home we went to the park as a family and did all of this stuff…..

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skateboarding and bike riding.

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the playground.

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then soccer.

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These two have the same moves, ha-ha! I love these pictures but Brad I’m sure wont like his ;)

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He gets AIR all the time.  He’s such a soccer star!

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The next soccer star! He’s still warming up but is so cute doing it. 

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Then my boys stopped all the soccer fun for a picture for Daddy to take with him but it just goes to show how kids have no clue the seriousness of the day.  They are in there own little worlds!   The last picture Bradley is attempting to participate and Gavin, well, he can still use the baby excuse! I have a big and easy job being the cheerleader for these three. 

Be safe honey and we love you so muches! 

6 comments:

The Marsh's said...

Awww, I'm sorry that you're down :( I can only imagine how hard it must be to not have Brad around every day, but you are a strong wife & such a good Mommy! Keep your head up, and if nothing else, I know Bradley will keep making you laugh!

The Kmieciak's said...

Hang in there sis! Your such a strong woman and amazing mommy and I know you will get through this! Were here for you and hope you can visit soon or vice versa!! He's in our prayers! I love my little soccer stars:)

Liz said...

I love the soccer pics of both the boys. I know how much you miss your hubby. At least both of our guys are gone at the same time so we can hang out....umm everyday like we have been. Sick of us yet?

The Baldwin Family said...

You made me so sad! I can't imagine what it's like, but I know you'll make it through just fine! You're such a wonderful Mommy!

Mandi said...

I can honestly say I know how you feel! It's the worst, most empty feeling missing your other half while being the only parent around! But you are so strong and although you might never hear it enough or know it at that, people look up to you and envy your strength and patience! Keep strong & positive & I'm praying for Brad's safe return!

Tori said...

you are my hero! sometimes i don't know how i make it through the day and i only have ONE baby and my hubby around! i prayed for you all this morning! and i met your precious little gavin in the nursery sunday! oh so cute!!